Sometimes it can be tough finding the motivation to pray daily. There are times when I have prayer sessions that I just don’t want to end. I feel so connected to the Holy Spirit that I feel I could pray for hours. And then there are times when sitting down to pray for even 3 minutes can feel like torture. My mind is wandering, and all I can think about is the laundry list of things I need to do. In these cases, I feel I am praying more out of obligation than because I actually want to talk with God.
Recently the latter happened to me, and trust me when I say…it wasn’t for the first time. Usually this happens when I have a busy schedule and neglect to spend time with God. Whether by not praying, reading my bible, or going to church on a regular basis, I begin to feel disconnected. And then when I do try to get back into my groove, I find it to be forced and ritualistic, instead of me wanting to connect with God. When this happens, instead of forcing myself to do something I’m really not feeling at all, I pray about it.
Instead of continuing with a ritual that feels fake and forced, I am honest towards God with my feelings. I mean, he knows them already…so why hide them? 🙂
I simply pray that I haven’t been feeling “it” lately. I feel disconnected. And my prayers feel forced. BUT…that’s not the way I want my relationship with Him to be. I want to be excited to pray. I want Him to feel real to me. I ask to feel close to Him again, and to please help reignite that passion and love.
What’s funny is that recently when this happened, like a whisper in my ear, God almost immediately told me to…read my Bible. My response? Ugh…ok.
Obediently I whipped out my bible, and thumbed through the pages until landing on the book of 1 Timothy from the New Testament. Inspired on my recent trip to Cuba to read 1 Timothy 6:10, I decided to continue reading the whole chapter. The words were like music to my ears.
As I continued to read, the words lifted my heart and I felt in complete awe of this amazing God that I serve. Wow, our God is so amazing!
It completely lifted me up. The disconnected feeling are washed away and just by reading the Bible, His words literally fill my soul like living water.
After reading a bit more, I feel a complete shift in my heart. Instead of feeling forced and obligated to pray, I simply could not wait to pray and praise this amazing God that I serve.
God knows everything. And He knows what you need in every situation. When you feel lost and disconnected, ask Him for help. I am continually amazed at how willing He is to reach out when you call upon His name.
Over to you! Have you experienced something similar? Let me know your thoughts in the comments below!